A little girl grew up thinking she knew everything Part 2

A little girl grew up thinking that not only did she know everything but she had more then anyone. When I say more, I mean more. She lived in a large house with carnival size appliances in her home and had parties every week end that her mother threw together for her and a couple of siblings. Her mother came up with a group that was just geared for girls and boys for her and her siblings to interact with children their ages and more. Mother drives the newest Mercury Topaz. The lies get more as this little girl grows up and meets new friends; some do not see the danger. Of course the child wont tell this story to someone who knows her but to someone who may never know what her real life consist of. The truth is this person is so unhappy with their life that they will make it out to be better then yours. People will say just about anything if they are truly looking to impress you without realizing that they are robbing you of really knowing who they are.

What if God himself was the one whom this person was talking to; what response do you think she would have received? Let's just say you knew one of her friends and found out that she lived in an apartment and that her mother really drove a later model Buick, how would you approach her? Some of us would really call her all kinds of choice words of a liar. But Jesus would simply tell her that she needs to change her lies into truths and to stop allowing Satan to suggest to her many ways to lie to a stranger. Then he would simply tell her that if she is ashamed of her life how could she be proud of her accomplishments in life? To be ashamed of where you came from means you are ashamed of how God developed you to be who are today. You have taken that shame into now your adult life of Christianity only to be a fence dweller not a lukewarm Christian with no real back bone. So the heck what you know bible verses or have read the bible Satan does to and he/she goes to church as well and may attend all services just like you.

We are a people of telling the truth only when it suits us. Maybe wont tell outlandish lies as such as the girl, but yeah we will to save our marriages, relationships, jobs, or to anyone for any occasion. Is God happy with our lack of honesty or our character of haughtiness of spirit? At what point are we holding ourselves accountable for our own actions, but don't we hold others accountable for their actions?

A little girl grew up thinking she knew everything that there is to know about life. She knew more than her teachers that in the absence of the teacher was able to teach the class with a C average grade. Went to college and knew more than her professors with a D average. She even was in competition with her family and friends and yes you guessed it she was smarter and better then them as well. Although she has not experienced much in her life she knows how to live your life better than you. If you are better then everyone and know more then anyone. At what point do you learn or is it just to make others see you as plan unlearned and unwilling to learn anything new.

When you go to church she knows more then the average minister and grudges over how she was raised, the things she missed as a child, things that she was forced on her to learn. Never learning from her own mistakes but points out your mistakes and lives in the past future. Feels that no one should ever judge her differently then she judges herself. 

Some may find her to be verbal abusive, controlling, mentally abusive and unstable of knowing who she is. Busy doing the things that family and friends want to do and be. Going through life loosing more of herself and not even trying to who she is. Males come in her life as friends and leave with a thought and feeling there is no room for them in her life or space. May at times seem to be covetousness or flirty at times. Pretends to be a nerd. No one has ever told her that she comes off like a bitter old woman. Being old one believes there is a lot of wisdom, but acting old does not mean one has wisdom. Wisdom comes from living, but since she refuses one can only suspect she is learning foolish wisdom. The bible has a lot to say about foolish and silly women. I know little boys go through this as well, but since the bible talks about foolish and silly women; I used a a girl growing up.

Her end is living alone singing her should of would of could of's, and when she cries, laughs. or even worries no one will hear or pay attention to her. For she has driven away everyone from her as a diseased contagious person. 

Please remember we are all in the classroom of learning not knowing everything, strive to learn something new everyday. Live in the hear and now and let yesterday take care of yesterday; let exasperation be exact and precise. Learn to be true and honest and not full of falsehood. God would have us to show brotherly love one to another and to treat each other like we would treat our own self. Study your word and pray one for another. God bless you.

I Am

                                               I am unhappy and
                                               you are not there
                 
                                               I am scared and
                                               you rebuke me harshly

                                               I am worried and
                                               you turn away

                                               I am happy and
                                               you joke and
                                               play with me

                                               I am over joyed and
                                               you laugh and
                                               tease me

                                              I am confused and
                                              you openly make one
                                              feel ashamed

                                              I want to talk and
                                              you want to argue a point.

Baby Mom ma Drama

Baby Mom ma

This goes out to ALL BABY MOM MA DRAMATIC WOMEN! Who think that just because you got a baby by the man/young man you were once head over heels about, and now the two of you are not together, you are denying that man to bond with that child/children. So what you're mad as blank at him but what you are putting yourself before the needs of your child/children. Which is not fair to the growth of your child. 

Listen to me and please learn from my mothers mistake. I am the product of my own Mom ma's drama. See my mother had me out of wedlock and she fell deep into her own thought that I am better off not having him in my life. Take a look at what he was denied: 
Seeing his daughter playing the violin. In many concerts in and out of school. 
Watching me bowl once or twice a week. 
Seeing me walk, talk and grow up. 
Seeing me graduate from high school. 
Being able to give me away when I got married. 
Being there for his grandchildren. 
Helping me understand relationship from a man's point of view. 
Him guiding me as my father. (even knowing his name)
Being a better person to talk to. Even when I wanted to drop out of college. 
Love me like only a father can. 


Get it yet? Yes I didn't even know my father's name until I turned 34 and saw his picture in Indy Men's magazine. I called her up when I saw him. A couple of close friends told me I look like him. The point here is he died before I could get to know him better to understand the big gaping whole of who I am. Meaning to fully understand what he and his family is all about. Where I fit if I fit in at. 

The biggest part of this still saddens me to this day. The one who raised me told me after coming back from a wake, said "I would take you to see your grandmother, but she doesn't need to know how silly you are." 

Here is another story for you. My husband's two girls did not have a chance to bond with him when they were younger nor did he know where they lived in the state they lived in. Let's take a look at what he missed shall we. 
One child having surgery
Both of their lives growing up. 
Both graduations 
Both entering college. 
But at least he is getting a chance to talk to them on the phone now.
A closer look at this: she filed for child support in 2003 after hearing that we had 6 children; and only because she wants the money without him getting to know the two children. Selfish yes. They were once married and she has many pint up anger towards him and herself. 

Whooooooo you don't know this is taking a lot for me to type while I am watching children being destroyed through mom mas decisions. 
My only advice is to grow the heck up and put aside your emotions and let the babies daddy be a part of their lives it is necessary. 
You are being selfish, inconsiderate, weak minded, unintelligent women. As a matter of fact you can not claim to be a christian. Not with that going on. 
This kind of behavior will eat deep seeds of bitterness, heart ache, unhealthy life, destroyer of relationships if ever get married, and emotional distress. 

I pray you've learned and are able to move pass this so God can bless you in 2010. This is what I pray for is that that I can touch at least one Baby Mom ma Drama life and help her understand the importance of daddy being a part of the child's life. 

The Message

I have been hearing people despising where they came from to just to meet the approval of someone else's dislike. People have no since of stand for who they are for always selling out due to fear of loosing a friend; but yet will sell out our neighbor for an ice cream bar and a box of fruity pebbles. Look around what you so ready to denounce how close are you to denouncing God? For some this started during their childhood and progressed into their adult life style. Wishy washy,pansy, yellow belly, fence spliters, or what ever you call cowards. Cowards only mission on the planet is to PLEASE MAN. Watch here the Bible refers to masters as you can only serve one master one in which you love to serve and the other one, but do not take my word for it. Matthew 6:24 No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. KJV.  Okay so you say that is not you well the Bible has one for you as well...James 1:8 Double minded man is unstable in all his ways. James 4:8 Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye doubleminded. KJV.

If you so want to practice hating everything about yourself the next to go is your self awareness of the things around you that made you who you are through your belief in Christ. For some it

My message is this: If you do not like where you are from; how will you love where you are going?