It Starts With Me part 2

Everyone of us has a story a story of depression, abuse, neglect, feeling lonely, afraid, oppressed and the list can continue. Right now I am on a topic "It Begins With You". Why does it begin with me? You have allowed people to treat you the way they want to treat you and talk the way they want to talk to you. Like I said we all have a story some of us are bullies because all we know is to take what we think is owed to us. Some of us are to shy to stand up but find it comfortable to lay down and just take whatever they can dish out; just so you can cry about it later. No mater it is your choice to let people treat you the way they do. Some of you go and find that friend so that you can have a petty party or to build up that fake courage to halfway stand up to the one that hurt your little bitty feelings. Instead what you should have done all along is pick up your word and started reading and praying about your situation. Sometimes God talks to through his word and gives you the right thing to pray about, instead of attacking the person in your prayers (guilty I am). I have herd that I am a christian or I am saved and God has my back. Okay I'll give you that one but what happened to defending yourself in word using scripture just as you would in winning a soul for Christ? Not the same thing you said; but yet the word clearly states to: 1 Peter 2:12 Having your conversation honest among the Gentiles: that, whereas they speak against you as evildoers, they shall behold, glorify God in the day of visitation. I was taught to stand up for myself, but fell in the bounds of slavery of my depressed state of being allowing everyone to take a shot at me from whatever angle they wanted to, until I woke up and decided that enough was enough. I fought long and hard not to live in depression but take back Michele Charise Holder Matthew Holder Richardson. So to begin my journey I had to Study it begins with you.
Like I said everyone has a story in order to heal from your past you must start where it all began, like for me it started at age 7. I started out keeping a journal but it was only keeping track of the things that kept me bound and connected to my depression. What is keeping you bound and connected to your situation?


Exercise:

Make 2 collages 1 of the things you like and 1 of the things you want on the back of them write a story explaining your collages.

Make a encouraging collage (one that you have to recite every morning) put it where you can see it everyday. I hung mine in my bathroom in my room.

Read your word everyday and remember to be around those who you have great support and encouragement from. (Start with Genesis to Revelation) I have my go to scriptures Isaiah 30, 31, Colossians 3:12 - 25

Sing out loud My song is Mary Mary "It's The God In Me" Yolanda Adams "Because Of Who You Are" and in prayer "Precious Lord"

Read my books "Stop You Are Hurting Me"!, "Stop Who Are You Really"! and "False Teachers and Prophets". I wrote these books as a self help christian books. visit my website https://www.fromthedeskofevangmrichardson.webnode.com

IT STARTS WITH ME!

IT STARTS WITH ME!


I hear so many of my friends and family members saying they must change themselves for..... . Guess what whatever reason you are wanting to change yourself make darn sure it lines up with God. Let me tell you this I am the worst when it comes to changing for a man, family members, acceptance, and whatever feasted my fancy. Guess what it has left me feeling alone and seeking what's wrong with me. You can get so caught up in changing yourself to please the world the word calls you a lovers of pleasure. (2 Timothy 3:3 Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasure more than lovers of God;) Don't get mad or change to the next blog without hearing this I DID ALSO! Did it make me a bad person? Sure it did cause I wasn't true to who I was. Here me! I blamed women more importantly black women for the way I was. Often times I was deemed to be not black because I did't act black? Whatever that meant.My favorite one "you think you are too cute!" Thought never ran through my mind this cycle started for me at age 7 all up to age 47. That's right 40 years, 40 long years. Wait hold on you got saved at 21 and started preaching at 30 how's that?
Did you hear me it started at the age of 7; so it was a habit for me; and yet I still struggle with it today. Let me help you out; everyone in some form of passion wants to fit in somewhere. The catch phrase get in where you fit in does that ring a bell for you? Often times it is the reality of others. When I bowled I could be myself the competitive selfish side. I flowed with awe and ease, but drank to forget the pain at home only to picture the pain and anger towards the pins. Huh. 7 years old trying to be someone I wasn't nice but with a cold hard side. So yes it is sad to say that many people who were around me didn't even know me for real for real. To me I am like a strand from a sweater being pulled, sensitive and yet stands firm hugging at the right moments but can be extremely playful. Ask my children.
Every since I turned 47 I was faced with you used to do.... . Then I questioned the person I saw in the mirror WHO ARE YOU? So I had a little activity that my children and I did. We did a collage of things we like and then one for the things we want. I found I am quite different from how people see me. Now there is a bigger question HOW? I will say this I noticed that even when we allow people to dictate who we are we hold on to one thing that we love. For me wearing dresses and skirts I believed that from the age of 5 my mother told me. What are you holding true to? Build on that it is a start, yes you will stumble like a baby learning to walk but so what. Take back you!
Let's back up for a minute here if you will. For me when I have tried to change for other people but found myself still being unaccepted by my peers and some family members. Not knowing who I can turn to if I needed to talk due to their gossiping about my situation and making it out to be more than what it really was. Then when I was questioned even if I tried to explain they knew better because what someone else said; yep then you are now a liar. How many times have you been called out your name because someone didn't like the way you present yourself, talk or even walk? How about being attacked because you are a different denomination? Has that ever happened to you? How about this one you go to a family gathering and everyone seemingly gives you the evil eye or the awkward silence treatment but fake like they are glad to see you? Well if you answered yes to any of those questions just know that it is not you it is on them. Yes what people say and possibly to you does hurt but know this please don't waddle in it.
How does it begin with you? Well you have a choice to stay true to who you are and not to conform to the people in your neighborhood (not the neighborhood as in where you live but whom you call your friends and family). Look it isn't easy finding out who YOU are really if you constantly trying to please man rather than the God in you. (Ephesians 4:6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all). To please everyone is is to please GOD! You can not please anyone like you can please yourself by pleasing God. You can't love without loving God. Being faithful to anyone without being faithful to God. What ever you do you can't do it without God. Hold on let me let James chapter 4:10 - 17 tell you why.
10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

11 Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge.

12 There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another?

13 Go to now, ye that say, To day or to morrow we will go into such a city, and continue there a year, and buy and sell, and get gain:

14 Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.

15 For that ye ought to say, If the Lord will, we shall live, and do this, or that.

16 But now ye rejoice in your boastings: all such rejoicing is evil.

17 Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.
This can often leave one with feeling alone and dismayed. How do you get back to feeling whole again? Matthew 4:4 But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word proceedeth out of the mouth of God. Philippians 2:5 Let this mind be in you, which is also in Christ Jesus: If you start  with the basics and work yourself into finding out what else God's word says about you.Then you can forget what others are and have been saying or doing to you.

DOOR MAT OR CHRISTIAN?

As I child growing up I never grasped the why one day it was okay to pray in school and the next it was forbidden. I felt like it was the begging of loosing the faith that I was once felt confident in and not to mention that I when I found out it took one atheist woman to change PRAYER in school nationwide. As a child growing with I had the opportunity to enjoy Halloween Parties in school Christmas functions but it became a problem when NON-CHRISTIANS/JEWS changed why the change? I herd stories from my grandmother and my oldest son of how they enjoyed to see the costumes of their friends and the school plays that went on during those times. Christmas was a time when the hallways would be filled wit a Nativity scene or some religious items and even a Christmas tree. This went on for many years until someone got up one day and said "huh let me see what kind of things the CHRISTIAN/JEWS world is offending my child with today; ooh look they are celebrating Halloween and Christmas. I need to get some friends together and change that, they won't fight it because there is not enough Christians in this world." We have complied to this world BUT when have we complied to the word of GOD? We as CHRISTIANS/JEWS have been targeted since Christ. I understand the JEWS have gone through a lot but this is AMERICA where we have freedom of speech and religion.

During this time I as a child learned of one denomination well enough to disagree with it's followers and tactics. I looked for a Biblical standings for it but I found none. I told my family members my findings and shared it even with my friends and still to this day I stand on the WORD of GOD alone.

Now here it is 2014 and we are still not sure what side of the fence we CHRISTIANS want to be on. I have always felt that WE go to a Church, Synagogue or Temple and listen to a pastor/preacher tell us about how we should and should not conduct ourselves, but yet when we stop conforming to the world we make headline and even forced to apologize or even sued; for the comments we say about other denominations. When have other denominations had to apologize to the CHRISTIANS or even sued? How many times have we been approached by NON-CHRISTIANS and once they find out you are a CHRISTIAN they ridiculed you for not being open minded and change to their denomination. Even if we sing praises  unto our God we are told to stop singing and when we come back with the word of God they walk off stumping their feet in a childish manner.
Here is what I feel we as Christians is get behind one another when they are right. I feel that the owner at Lucas Oil Stadium felt compelled to mention how they felt. How many of us felt the same way?

Same sex marriage why and is is Biblical and; yet what is the purpose? What does it mean for us who are married to the opposite sex? Is opposite sex Biblical and what is the purpose? Even those of us who do not believe in same sex marriage, if we are asked to marry them and refuse we will have to pay a fine because that would fall under discrimination act. Not to mention how some people feel that churches should not be tax exempt. Let me ask this question; what would happen to charities and other organizations that depend on donations?  People do not think about the consequences of there I want or mad just to get even behavior, or who does it affects anyway?
What changes have you noticed that has effected the CHRISTIANS/JEWS alike?

Venting about Unstable People

I have often wondered how someone can be content being unstable. 

I struggle with the thought of a man not wanting a job but lives off of SSI, but his household struggles with him providing the very things his family needs.
He is quick to judge the man for doing what he is doing to his own family. Unstable in this aspect means you are selfish.
I do have a friend that does work but has a problem keeping it, and finds self looking for a place to stay as well as a new job with an old attitude. Grown children should not have to carry their parent/s as their burdens. When the only thought is on the mind job and a companion and then maybe a place of their own. Jump at the chance to stay with family or friends. What tbe heck, why does selfishness compel these people. (I am not talking about taking care of an elderly or sick parent, an able body).
I am a wife and a mother but I know selfishness to be a one side dish to lonely street. Selfish people are lazy and lackadaisical and are a willing aide in tearing down their own home with their own hands.
These are only two aspects of selfish unstable minded people I have put up with and allowed to abuse me and take advantage of me.
Tuesday vent day you know unstable people speak up and add if you like. Michele Richardson

House Hold Of Faith

GALATIANS 3:22-29

22 But the scripture hath concluded all under sin, that the promise by faith of Jesus Christ might be given to them that believe.

23 But before faith came, we were kept under the law, shut up unto faith which should afterwards be revealed.

24 Wherefore the law was our schoolmaster to bring us unto Christ, that we might be justified by faith.

25 But after that faith is come, we are no longer under a schoolmaster.

26 For ye are all children of God by faith in Christ Jesus.

27 for as many of you as  been baptized into Christ have put on Christ.

28 There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond or free, there is neither male nor female; for ye are all one in Christ Jesus.

29 If you be Christ’s, then are you Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise. 

Here we are going to talk about FAITH. Without faith it is really impossible to live or even please God.

Faith is the ground floor, because to believe = faith.

Example: you have a friend that you believe tells you the truth and in that you have faith in the conversation you have with them.

Now when you believe in faith, and trust in faith and you will have full understanding in the faith,  and the belief thereof.

 Let’s look at the key words Mr. Webster threw at us here:

Trust

Hope

Believe

So with these three components must equal FAITH. What we do with it depends solely on who? (point at yourself and say it depends and starts with ME). As it was explained to me everyone trust in the very chair you are sitting to hold your weight, your or a vehicle to get you to point A to point B and return to point A.

Marriage the Way God Intended

Marriage the Way God Intended

                                    There are a lot of people who will tell you marriage is what you make of it and what you put in you will get out of it. You’ve probably heard that a family that prays stays together stays together. Only if all of those were true; could we then rule out what God’s plan on marriage? Not so, your life depends on it. In your vows you promised to love, honor, and cherish her as long as you both shall live. Did you lie or forget using selective memory? Adultery is and always a sin. We call extra marital affair still a sin. Forsaking all others (NO affairs with women or men) in what ways and you have an affair? 1.) Time spent away from home, 2.) Secret meeting with someone your spouse does not know about. 3.) Occupying space and ignoring those around you. Today it is during the vows is the beginning of a marriage between the couple and God. Once the ceremony is over and the Honey Moon starts that is sensitive and can be what makes or breaks the marriage. Some say that it is better to spend 6 weeks alone on some type of Honey Moon (plan your Honey Moon with your job do not neglect your marital needs this is a very sensitive time); cannot express that enough. If God commands you to love your wife why would he put a limit on how much you should love her? I hear so many men saying I am not allowed to love her the way I want to, because God knows I would worship the very ground she walks on. Explain the word cherish. According to http://www.merriam-webster.com   transitive verb

1

A: to hold dear: feel or show affection for <cherished her friends>b: to keep or cultivate with care and affection: nurture<cherishes his marriage>

2

: To entertain or harbor in the mind deeply and resolutely

Let me say this if you are being abused get out. Sometimes you have to do the unthinkable walk out with just the cloths on your back and kids while he is away. If he is cheating and you know he is and you are not alright with it leave, but if you can work through it then stay. There are way too many diseases that cannot be cured, just something to think about. Is your life worth you living disease free and worry free? If he is cheating does he love you the way Christ loves the church? In what ways does Christ love the church (church does not mean building, but you) so do you love your wife equally?  Husbands giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered. This is about how you treat your wife in the aspects of mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually behavior from you? This is my favorite one not because I am a wife, but because husbands can’t disrespect or abuse their wives. So many men think that they can say harsh mean and treat the wife rudely. Then blame her for the reason of the harsh and rudeness of their actions. Hold on player let me help you with that; death and life are in the power of the tongue. Many of relationships are killed by what is spoken out of your mouth and many soar in harmony by the very words spoken. Is what you are saying or doing killing your marriage? If you kill your marriage are held accountable for it? If you are abiding by the bible God bless you and carry on, and many blessings follow you.

1.)    How often do you tell her you love her? Some only tell their wife when going off to work and when going to bed.

2.)    How often do you cuddle and plan a romantic night or moments with your wife? Some never do, but feel it is up to the wife to always plan.

3.)     When was the last time you stared into your wife’s eyes and thanked God for her? Some take it for granted.

4.)    Do you have intimacy in your marriage or are you depriving her and you of it?

5.)    Do you sing to her and are you still doing what attracted her to you?

6.)    Is your wife pleased with you?   

                                                                      A story

I am married to a wonderful man don’t get me wrong, but at a price. I sold my soul to learn I am not worthy to be loved. To be shunned never to feel the compassion of her mate nor know him to have her back. At childbearing learning of the unthinkable any uncaring self-centered man would do. Get himself checked out and let her find out later, and with excuses. Yes every time. I lived with the why he can’t cuddle,  hold me, be intimate and be more loving towards me had to get over his past with his life before you. Yes I bought it. Not knowing his touch or how gentle he can be. All I know is gentle in bed and rough the rest of time.  You are told to be whatever your husband needs of you. Do what you are told and do not question what he says. Sorry but the word tells us to love him not in ignorance but to use wisdom. Yes you are to keep the house clean and treat him as the king of his castle the priest of his house. In your vows you said that you promised to love, cherish, honor and obey your husband as long as you both shall live. Did you lie or forget using selective memory? Remember nobody can tell you how to be married to your husband, but they will try to advice you concerning marriage. Wrong or right it is up to you to choose to listen or ignore what you have been told. These are the things our mothers forgot to tell you about marriage, and what is expected of you as the wife. What to look for and do in the marriage. Adultery is and always a sin. We call extra marital affair a sin. Forsaking all others (NO affairs with women or men) in what ways can you have an affair? 1.) Time spent away from home, 2.) Secret meeting with someone your spouse does not know about. 3.) Occupying space and ignoring those around you.  Wives are to honor by respecting the husbands and service them to whatever degree within reasoning.  Gossip is not found in her, and she is seen as a woman of wisdom by staying true to who she is.  Let me say this if you are being abused get out. If she is cheating and you know she is and you are not ok with it leave, but if you can work through it then stay. Same I stated for the husband can be said here for the wife.  Do you serve your husband? Meals ready for him and bath drawn for him? Meaning are you serving your husband the way his needs are met physically by you?

1.)    Are you soft spoken or forceful? Do you tend to let him shine or are you often the one shinning?  

2.)    Are you happy in your marriage? What needs to change to obtain the state of happiness your need? Hint: First look at you not him you cannot fix him, but you can fix you.

3.)    Do you sing to him and are you still doing what attracted him to you?

4.)    Is your husband pleased with you?   

                                      The union between husband and wife comes forth children. Before Children there should be a plan of raising them. The bible lets us know as parents we are held accountable the raising of these children that are given to us as gifts from God. God wants to tell us how to care for these precious little ones. Stop depending upon your children to pay your bills and theirs also. I have seen many parents ignoring what their children do and what they say. Today we have become a people that don’t believe it takes a village to raise children. So many of us believe in the straight and wide program, and too many on the loose and not caring program. Some on the pretending program of fence living.

1.)    Are you teaching your children or are their peers parenting them?

2.)    Are you there for your children or are their peers there for them?

3.)    How effective are you as a parent or are their peers more appealing?

4.)    Do you teach them the ways of Christianity or of your beliefs or their peers telling them their ways?

5.)    Are you in contact with teachers and principals or are their peers the center focus of their life?

6.)    Where do you as the parent fall in place of your child’s wellbeing?
This is just A Story!!

Well what is your story?

Love Your Neighbor and Forgiveness

 

When my grandmother passed this past January, I flew in from Texas and stayed  in the house I grew up in and slept in my old bed room. My uncle and aunt living there and a day later their daughter and son in-law came in from New York; they slept in my mother’s old room. For the first two days before the funeral we all were joking and having and conversations. I knew tempers would run wild and ramped the day of the funeral on Saturday January 19, 2014. Well after the funeral it became very apparent that I was an outsider. My cousin from New York did not hesitate to show her hatred toward Christians seeing that everyone else in the house were Jehovah Witnesses. Realizing that neither my aunt or her daughter displayed wisdom in front of their company and bashing Christianity. All the while my aunt talked about the Pastor using his phone and miss quoting scriptures. Both agreed that the funeral service was like that of “Happy Feet.” 

I was quickly reminded of the 10 commandments that God (Jehovah) gave to Moses on the mount Ex. 20:7 – 17, but I would like to draw your attention to verses 13 – 17  it states:

13 Thou shall not kill. (Deut. 5:17)

14 Thou shalt not commit adultery.

15 Thou shalt not steal.

16 Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor.

17 thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s wife, nor his manservant nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor anything that is thy neighbor’s. (Deut. 5:21; Prov.6:29)

Now turn with me to Psalms 15:1,3

1 LORD who shall abide in thy tabernacle? who shall dwell in thy holy hill?

3 He that backbiteth not with his tongue, nor doeth evil to his neighbor, nor taketh up a reproach against his neighbor. (Ex. 23:3)

Even though I was offended by what they were saying against Christians the offense wasn’t against me but the very God we all serve (according to them). Although Matthew 22:37 – 40 states this:

37 Jesus said unto him, THOU SHALT LOVE THE LORD THY GOD WITH ALL THY HEART, AND WITH ALL THY SOUL, AND WITH ALL THY MIND.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, THOU SHALT LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THY SELF. (Lev. 19:18; Mark 12:31; Rom. 13:9)

40 On these two commandments hang all the law and prophets.

But still my friend 1 John have this to say: 

1 John 4:20 If a man say, I love God, and  hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? (1 John 2:4)

I know right now I am talking about loving my neighbor, but my question is this how can you love your neighbor and never forgiving them in your own heart? Every time I remind myself of this awful but learning experience, I forgive them. Forgiveness is not for them but for me. Alright turn to Psalm 130:4 But there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayest be feared.

Matthew 6:14,15 For if ye forgive men of their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:

15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

So how awesome is that to forgive so that you will be forgiven by our heavenly Father. (Yahweh) I am reminded of a song by Hezekiah Walker “You Pray For Me” the song goes on to say “I wont hurt you with the words from my mouth, I love you, I need you to survive.” Note this if you want to walk close to God you must walk agreeably with one another.         

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Stop! You Are Hurting Me

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Random Thoughts Racing Through My Head Part 2

With money being an issue and she ashamedly thought about how her business would have helped financially; yet without the stress and strain of not having a cushioned savings a plan for traveling vacations and more. Now with that being said how can someone sabotage their own family financial status without a care in the world, and or wanting to be a MAN. Ramona feels like a prisoner with certain privileges as long as she remembers to ask for permission to do what she wants. She feels that the marriage is one sided in favor of her husband and feels that many men would side with him and not her. He has even told her that what she felt about him is what he feels about her. When she felt it was time to tell him how she feels in the relationship. She has even felt afraid when he got a part of her past wrong he went into a rage of yelling, screaming out his point of her past. 
One day Ramona went through her old unfinished journals and read the countless STD's she had while with child and a couple were after the birth of a child. Ramona now questions the 25 years if in fact he ever really loved her or was she just an arm ornament so he would not have to be alone. While reading these journals she feels like she never really knew him the way she felt she should have. He didn't want her fixing her hair using lotion nor having the need to be a woman, so that it would be easier for him to flee into the arms of another woman. Why does he feel the need to be bitter towards me and chooses to be pleasant to others. I've noticed this how he treats one he treats the others, and when in the company of authority figures he is like a puppy to it's master, but once out of the presence he talks about them. Why does she stay is it because of the children or does she have a plan on the when she will leave? Ramona is the kind of person who is much the friendly unsure of how to conduct an interesting conversation, but has a need to keep talking like it is her last. 
In this relationship Ramona has become very lazy and depressive and not knowing when the tears will go away along with the feeling of loneliness. She cries almost every night and sometimes during the day and when her children come home she pretends to be happy and ready eager to hear how their day went. When they hurt she hurts even more. She is goes through enough for her and her children and then it is all left on her shoulders. Nothing that she grew up doing is allowed and nor her philosophy or motto is allowed. Does he even know her motto? "Help me while I am down and I am loyally yours. Kick me while I am down I may cry for a while but when I am able to stand on my own, I will leave you." Her philosophy is this to be loyal to the one who is loyal and helpful to you, and never be the one who bites the hand or hands of non-enemies. Lives by what is stated in Matthew 22:37-40 it Jesus telling the  Pharisees and the Sadducee about the greater commandment in which we should live. 

Welcome all to the world of Ramona by that I mean do not be so quick to judge any one without first understanding where one comes from, what they are going through, and where they would like to be going. For all that it takes getting to know that person intimately. Do not be one of those that just think that to be intimate is a requirement of the dance between the sheets. It is more than that and plan things together as friends.  

Colossians 3:18-19 King James Version (KJV)

¹⁸ Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as it is fit in the Lord.
¹⁹ Husbands, love your wives, and be not bitter against them.

Matthew 22:37-40 King James Version (KJV)

³⁷ Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
³⁸ This is the first and great commandment.
³⁹ And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
⁴⁰ On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

Random Thoughts Racing Through My Head

As a child Ramona was learning the art of being verbally abused and learned how to work through it and not pay it any mind. It became apart of her daily life; so she grew immune to the hurtful and degrading things that her loved ones once said to her. No one really pushed her into a direction that would help her in her adult life; failing college encouraged to give up and find a job at the nearest fast food. Once found a job, only to get fired due to not having transportation to work. Oh don't worry one parent would say, I'll take you to work. then change their mind and if they were your only source oh well. So after loosing 4 jobs that way discouragement set in. The of parents helping their child to succeed instead of failing and then talking about them badly to other family members and never noticing the child doesn't even have friends. 
Ramona goes on and gets married to who she thought was her best friend, only to find out in a heated she was the wrong color and age. She had graduated from verbal abuse to adding sexual and physical abuse. Wow someone asked how she was emotionally let's just say very numb and unresponsive at times. Well she divorced him and a few years later marries someone whom would keep up the verbal/emotional abuse by degrading, yelling, not listening to her, never there for her when she is down; but yet kicks her farther down. Now in this marriage they have children together and he tells her she smiles because she is happy. When in fact it is better to smile then it is to frown. He has done told her he is making it hard for her to talk to him, so she stays away from important things. She went to the hospital to find out what was wrong with her he chewed her out for going, and he has stopped loving her the way she loves herself. Ramona thought it couldn't get any worse when the 4 year old asked "what my daddy don't like you? (hugs her and says) I love you." Not too long after that he decides to tell her he wants to be able to yell and scream at the top of his lungs when he needs to at her, he told her that she was like an untamed lion (okay she felt as though that was what he was describing her character as). He helped Ramona open her business and when she turned to him for help again he wasn't there. Now owing over a thousand dollars in taxes she can not help her family earn money and she feels any man can talk to her any way he desires; and yet it is fine with him. Ramona in a few years has put on a few pounds and he is reminded of the skinny and slim Ramona. He forgets she's a woman outside of the bedroom so he treats her like one of guys. Never any real display of affection, but a friend/child relationship when out in public. At home the relationship is he disappears into the TV or talking on the phone, while she at times feels neglected. He watches his shows and they do what he likes and may be once in a while they do things she likes. What was that compromise? There is no need for that it is all about him blaming it is all about her. Let me tell you what he doesn't know about her: 1. why she don't chew gum, 2. her favorite flower, 3. secrets she has never told anyone, 4.her fears, 5. favorite spice, and 6. her goals in life. Oh what does she she know about him; his favorite color and TV is all he knows.
Ramona has been married to this man for 25 years and she has said "it is a very stressful life she has, and just needs a get away from it all from time to time. Feeling like your world could one day come crashing down on you and then what? Cry until someone notices ?" With no money to pay for wants and he feels budget is for when you have money you budget. Never saving money because the extra gets spent on something he wants.  He has riled out the joy in me and I feel as though I need an out...no more do I sing, no more do clean, I sit as a zombie waiting on a shelve to be discovered. I have not accomplished anything of my own I have accomplished failure after failure for that is all I know.

By Michele Richardson

A little girl grew up thinking she knew everything Part 2

A little girl grew up thinking that not only did she know everything but she had more then anyone. When I say more, I mean more. She lived in a large house with carnival size appliances in her home and had parties every week end that her mother threw together for her and a couple of siblings. Her mother came up with a group that was just geared for girls and boys for her and her siblings to interact with children their ages and more. Mother drives the newest Mercury Topaz. The lies get more as this little girl grows up and meets new friends; some do not see the danger. Of course the child wont tell this story to someone who knows her but to someone who may never know what her real life consist of. The truth is this person is so unhappy with their life that they will make it out to be better then yours. People will say just about anything if they are truly looking to impress you without realizing that they are robbing you of really knowing who they are.

What if God himself was the one whom this person was talking to; what response do you think she would have received? Let's just say you knew one of her friends and found out that she lived in an apartment and that her mother really drove a later model Buick, how would you approach her? Some of us would really call her all kinds of choice words of a liar. But Jesus would simply tell her that she needs to change her lies into truths and to stop allowing Satan to suggest to her many ways to lie to a stranger. Then he would simply tell her that if she is ashamed of her life how could she be proud of her accomplishments in life? To be ashamed of where you came from means you are ashamed of how God developed you to be who are today. You have taken that shame into now your adult life of Christianity only to be a fence dweller not a lukewarm Christian with no real back bone. So the heck what you know bible verses or have read the bible Satan does to and he/she goes to church as well and may attend all services just like you.

We are a people of telling the truth only when it suits us. Maybe wont tell outlandish lies as such as the girl, but yeah we will to save our marriages, relationships, jobs, or to anyone for any occasion. Is God happy with our lack of honesty or our character of haughtiness of spirit? At what point are we holding ourselves accountable for our own actions, but don't we hold others accountable for their actions?

A little girl grew up thinking she knew everything that there is to know about life. She knew more than her teachers that in the absence of the teacher was able to teach the class with a C average grade. Went to college and knew more than her professors with a D average. She even was in competition with her family and friends and yes you guessed it she was smarter and better then them as well. Although she has not experienced much in her life she knows how to live your life better than you. If you are better then everyone and know more then anyone. At what point do you learn or is it just to make others see you as plan unlearned and unwilling to learn anything new.

When you go to church she knows more then the average minister and grudges over how she was raised, the things she missed as a child, things that she was forced on her to learn. Never learning from her own mistakes but points out your mistakes and lives in the past future. Feels that no one should ever judge her differently then she judges herself. 

Some may find her to be verbal abusive, controlling, mentally abusive and unstable of knowing who she is. Busy doing the things that family and friends want to do and be. Going through life loosing more of herself and not even trying to who she is. Males come in her life as friends and leave with a thought and feeling there is no room for them in her life or space. May at times seem to be covetousness or flirty at times. Pretends to be a nerd. No one has ever told her that she comes off like a bitter old woman. Being old one believes there is a lot of wisdom, but acting old does not mean one has wisdom. Wisdom comes from living, but since she refuses one can only suspect she is learning foolish wisdom. The bible has a lot to say about foolish and silly women. I know little boys go through this as well, but since the bible talks about foolish and silly women; I used a a girl growing up.

Her end is living alone singing her should of would of could of's, and when she cries, laughs. or even worries no one will hear or pay attention to her. For she has driven away everyone from her as a diseased contagious person. 

Please remember we are all in the classroom of learning not knowing everything, strive to learn something new everyday. Live in the hear and now and let yesterday take care of yesterday; let exasperation be exact and precise. Learn to be true and honest and not full of falsehood. God would have us to show brotherly love one to another and to treat each other like we would treat our own self. Study your word and pray one for another. God bless you.

I Am

                                               I am unhappy and
                                               you are not there
                 
                                               I am scared and
                                               you rebuke me harshly

                                               I am worried and
                                               you turn away

                                               I am happy and
                                               you joke and
                                               play with me

                                               I am over joyed and
                                               you laugh and
                                               tease me

                                              I am confused and
                                              you openly make one
                                              feel ashamed

                                              I want to talk and
                                              you want to argue a point.

Baby Mom ma Drama

Baby Mom ma

This goes out to ALL BABY MOM MA DRAMATIC WOMEN! Who think that just because you got a baby by the man/young man you were once head over heels about, and now the two of you are not together, you are denying that man to bond with that child/children. So what you're mad as blank at him but what you are putting yourself before the needs of your child/children. Which is not fair to the growth of your child. 

Listen to me and please learn from my mothers mistake. I am the product of my own Mom ma's drama. See my mother had me out of wedlock and she fell deep into her own thought that I am better off not having him in my life. Take a look at what he was denied: 
Seeing his daughter playing the violin. In many concerts in and out of school. 
Watching me bowl once or twice a week. 
Seeing me walk, talk and grow up. 
Seeing me graduate from high school. 
Being able to give me away when I got married. 
Being there for his grandchildren. 
Helping me understand relationship from a man's point of view. 
Him guiding me as my father. (even knowing his name)
Being a better person to talk to. Even when I wanted to drop out of college. 
Love me like only a father can. 


Get it yet? Yes I didn't even know my father's name until I turned 34 and saw his picture in Indy Men's magazine. I called her up when I saw him. A couple of close friends told me I look like him. The point here is he died before I could get to know him better to understand the big gaping whole of who I am. Meaning to fully understand what he and his family is all about. Where I fit if I fit in at. 

The biggest part of this still saddens me to this day. The one who raised me told me after coming back from a wake, said "I would take you to see your grandmother, but she doesn't need to know how silly you are." 

Here is another story for you. My husband's two girls did not have a chance to bond with him when they were younger nor did he know where they lived in the state they lived in. Let's take a look at what he missed shall we. 
One child having surgery
Both of their lives growing up. 
Both graduations 
Both entering college. 
But at least he is getting a chance to talk to them on the phone now.
A closer look at this: she filed for child support in 2003 after hearing that we had 6 children; and only because she wants the money without him getting to know the two children. Selfish yes. They were once married and she has many pint up anger towards him and herself. 

Whooooooo you don't know this is taking a lot for me to type while I am watching children being destroyed through mom mas decisions. 
My only advice is to grow the heck up and put aside your emotions and let the babies daddy be a part of their lives it is necessary. 
You are being selfish, inconsiderate, weak minded, unintelligent women. As a matter of fact you can not claim to be a christian. Not with that going on. 
This kind of behavior will eat deep seeds of bitterness, heart ache, unhealthy life, destroyer of relationships if ever get married, and emotional distress. 

I pray you've learned and are able to move pass this so God can bless you in 2010. This is what I pray for is that that I can touch at least one Baby Mom ma Drama life and help her understand the importance of daddy being a part of the child's life. 

The Message

I have been hearing people despising where they came from to just to meet the approval of someone else's dislike. People have no since of stand for who they are for always selling out due to fear of loosing a friend; but yet will sell out our neighbor for an ice cream bar and a box of fruity pebbles. Look around what you so ready to denounce how close are you to denouncing God? For some this started during their childhood and progressed into their adult life style. Wishy washy,pansy, yellow belly, fence spliters, or what ever you call cowards. Cowards only mission on the planet is to PLEASE MAN. Watch here the Bible refers to masters as you can only serve one master one in which you love to serve and the other one, but do not take my word for it. Matthew 6:24 No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. KJV.  Okay so you say that is not you well the Bible has one for you as well...James 1:8 Double minded man is unstable in all his ways. James 4:8 Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye doubleminded. KJV.

If you so want to practice hating everything about yourself the next to go is your self awareness of the things around you that made you who you are through your belief in Christ. For some it

My message is this: If you do not like where you are from; how will you love where you are going?

From the Desk of Evangelist Michele Richardson

Racism and what price are we willing to PAY?

Racism and what price are we willing to PAY? When can we just look at ourselves and begin there? How long is it going to take for EVERYBODY to let go of their hang ups that they may have about the sexes. The slaves have nothing to do with how we were raised, but hear me when I say this: If how we act stems from slavery then why isn't the black community closer then what it should be? I will say this is found in all walks of life and we have all adopted this way of thinking as time went on. After the freedom of slaves people got in their minds that they could do whatever they wanted to do. We have begun blaming others for our attitudes and the way we are. IT FREAKEN STEAMS FROM YOU AND ME. Enough already take blame for yourself and PLEASE PLEASE LET GOD BE YOUR GUIDE!!!!!!!  It starts with US changing who we think we are to what God needs us to be. NO MORE BLAME!!!!!!!People always want to change other people without changing themselves first. We are the role models, for our youth if WE can't get it together neither will they and the cycle continues and that goes for black, white, latino, asian, green or purple. Ok I will put it this way if you bleed red then this message is for you.

I hate to burst everyone’s bubble with this; but when you stop and look at the Roman Catholic Church and really study its history you will find you will understand more then what you know now. What I mean is the Roman Church needed a way to control its people and we all are the products that came from that movement.  They controlled how the men in the acted along with the women at that time. Notice here that in 726 AD the priest could no longer be married and the Nuns had to be committed to a nonsexual life style.  In that if you were not a part of the Roman Church you were considered to be a sinner regardless if you served Christ or not. They were this world’s leaders back in the day enslaving the minds of the people around them. That is why BIBLES were for the priest only and the laymen were not allowed to read it. Here we are Bible teaching believing folks and we are still bonded by the ways and beliefs of a MAN; and yet we are calling ourselves Christians walking with Christ. How dare we; we are no better than ADAM shifting blame on God for the female he gave her go to Genesis 3:11 there it is in black and white. All through the Old Testaments they had many wives and concubines and they had servants (slaves). Look we can all throw plenty of stones at our past but it all started in GENESIS and we all claim we are a part of the New Testament Church. We have traded in our crowns of glory for the price of our ancestor’s failures and mistakes. We uphold the blame banner and give a loud speech so that we can get people to believe our story that we are selling.

We have led many to believe that the white man wants to see people not getting along. Hold on since when did that white man/woman pull the trigger to the person holding the weapon that may have killed an innocent family member? When did that white man/woman ever tell your friend to betray you? WE are our biggest ENEMY because we are destroying ourselves with this crap and our children are being taught this garbage of racism from us. Wake up people notice we are not the victims here, we are survivors it is time to take notice as to who we are and who’s we are. Our children deserve a better US a brighter feature and only we are the only ones who can make it happen. 

Let me ask this question what did Dr. Martin Luther King stand for and was his life in vain? Look at us now! Is this what we were supposed to get out of the life of Dr. King?

 Bigger than that is what about GOD what has he been teaching us? What does the CROSS mean? 

Why all the hatred; does it solve anything does it accomplish any goals? 

Please answer that for me.